Real life spill right now.....being a mom is SUPER HARD!!!
I'm sure you're saying "Right Hannah. You have it so hard. One kid who is still not even mobile yet. Whats so hard??"
I know I don't have it as hard as some moms and my baby is pretty good natured for the most part. He has his days though....like growth spurt days....UGH! Those are the WORST!!!!
ANYWAYS. Being a mom is really hard. Especially a new one.
When I began this journey known as motherhood, I thought I had it all figured out. I thought everything was going to be rainbows! I thought once I got married and had babies I would be so incredibly happy all the time. I am happy and I love my life don't get me wrong, but sometimes I find myself seriously struggling.
I really struggle with the mundane of life sometimes. My husband and I love adventure. We were both missionaries overseas for goodness sakes. Right now our lives are pretty everyday. Most of the time I love it, but sometimes I long for some good old travel.
Don't get me wrong I love my baby, my husband and the season we are in! I am so incredibly grateful with what God has blessed me with! I just have a hard time every once in a while, with the day in and day out.
Sometimes my week is laundry, cleaning, washing cloth diapers, grocery shopping, feeding baby, changing baby, cooking and repeat. Sometimes it gets SUPER boring. I think that is why I craft, make my own wipes, my own bread, laundry detergent, and hand wash cloth diapers. To give myself something to do. I mean, my little dude isn't mobile yet. I know when he starts moving life will get busy. After all the cleaning and laundry is done (which isn't much) and I have some time to myself I really just want to do something. I find myself in front of the TV way more than I would like. I don't know what to do with myself. I feel like I don't know who I am as an individual. I am a mom. I am a wife. BUT who am I as Hannah?????
This is not something I thought I would have to figure out at 27. I mean, as a teen I went through that so I should be good right? NOPE. It's like once you have a baby your whole view on yourself changes. You doubt your mothering techniques, you hate the post baby body, you try to figure out how to have a relationship with spouse now that there is a baby in the mix and you are running on no sleep!
I am different now. Way different than 5 years ago. Way different than two years ago. Now I am discovering who Hannah is as an individual. Not as a cloth diapering, crafty, holistic mommy but as me, myself and I.
It is interesting for sure and thankfully I have an awesome husband who lets me bounce my craziness off of!
So this is what has been going on in my head lately. Well some of it.
I want to re state that I LOVE BEING A MOM! It's seriously the best and I wouldn't trade it for a million trips around the world!!!
~H~
Thursday, May 29, 2014
My How Time Has Flown!
I can always start with a picture.......
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| My cute little Yoda |
......OF THE CUTEST BABY BOY THAT EVER ROAMED THE EARTH!
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| TOTALLY ADORBS! |
Ok I have to limit myself to two or I will literally fill this whole blog up! I can't help myself! I have a cute kid ok!?
Anyways this cute little butter bean came into this world on the 14th of February 2014. Yup he is a Valentines Day baby! Finnli Joel was 6lbs 10oz and 20 inches long!
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| Last photo I promise....maybe... |
I am super in love with our sweet, active little guy...actually not so little anymore. Right now Finnli is around 13lbs and 22.5 inches long!
Being his mommy is the best! He is super sweet, smiles all the time, loves to watch life around him, thrashes his limbs due to the fact that he wants to participate in life around him, and is just super awesome! I could not have wished for a better boy!
I'm going to write more about what its like to be a new mommy but before I did, I wanted to post about my awesome little dude!
He sure keeps me on my toes already. I'm in trouble.....
~H~
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